On Dec. 2, Rena Sofer celebrated her 50th birthday and the star of THE BOLD & THE BEAUTIFUL (as Quinn) and alum of GENERAL HOSPITAL (as Lois) shared a very special message with her fans on Instagram. “Today I get to celebrate the fact that I have been occupying space on this beautiful planet for 50 years,” she mused. “As a child we think, ‘Wow, 50! That is so old!’ But I don’t feel old at all. I think what I feel most is wise and humbled.”
The baby photo of herself that Sofer posted also had a special meaning to her. “When I was born, the last thing my mother wanted was to be my mother,” she explained. “This picture I posted was in her album. I had a name, but to her I was ‘It.’ She finally walked out when I was just about to turn two years old. Growing up without a mother can lead to a very lonely and isolating existence. You have no one to guide you or help you navigate the rights and wrongs of society and relationship. At least that is how it affected me.”
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Today is my 50th birthday! Today I get to celebrate the fact that I have been occupying space on this beautiful planet for 50 years. As a child we think, WOW 50! That is SO OLD! But I don’t feel old at all. I think what I feel most is wise and humbled. ⠀ ⠀ It’s an amazing thing the universe gives you, if you let it. It gives you wisdom at key moments in your life. Like a key to a door you have desperately been trying to open for too long and suddenly, there it is. And it’s up to you to walk across that threshold and receive the knowledge you have been so desperately desiring. ⠀ ⠀ When I was born, the last thing my mother wanted was to be my mother. This picture I posted was in her album. I had a name but to her I was “It”. She finally walked out when I was just about to turn 2 years old. Growing up without a mother can lead to a very lonely and isolating existence. You have no one to guide you or help you navigate the rights and wrongs of society and relationships. At least that is how it affected me. ⠀ ⠀ I have spent a lifetime, or half of one, trying to decipher right from wrong. Sometimes I succeed but very often I have failed. Sometimes miserably. ⠀ ⠀ But for me, I knew I wanted to live the best life I could. I would pray every day to be the best person I could be. And as I moved through my years I learned many valuable lessons. While I am not an alcoholic, I believe living the credo “one day at a time” is an immeasurable gift. The great #RamDass said the meaning to life is to BE HERE NOW, and as my dear friend Carolyn says, “it’s not today’s problem.” All these messages are saying is plant your feet, be a good human, do your best, and forgive yourself and others when you fall. Then get up and start again.⠀ ⠀ The last three years have been a huge fall and greatly challenging. Extremely fulfilling, full of new friends and adventures and causes to be consumed with. And with that it has also been lonely and devastating at times. ⠀ ⠀ But I stand here today. Feet firmly on the ground and I say, I forgive you your trespasses Rena. I love you Rena. You always try your best and when you fail you always get up. ⠀ ⠀ [continue reading post in comments]
Though the actress admitted to struggling to decipher right from wrong, she knew she wanted to live the best life she could, and be the best person she could be no matter how difficult it was. “The last three years have been a huge fall and greatly challenging,” Sofer confided. “Extremely fulfilling, full of new friends and adventures and causes to be consumed with. And with that it has also been lonely and devastating at times. But I stand here today, feet firmly on the ground and I say, ‘I forgive you your trespasses, Rena. I love you Rena. You always try your best and when you fail, you always get up.’
“I am excited for this next half of my life,” Sofer concluded. “I see this birthday as a rebirth. I can build on the life I have with the tools I have spent 50 years cultivating. Try to live a life without judgement of myself and others. Realize it isn’t always about me and forgive myself when I forget that. Take responsibility for my actions. Be kind and generous and be part of the human race, and that means anything with a heartbeat. Be a friend to those who need me and cherish the ones who see my heart for what it is and love me. Open my heart to new love and rekindled love. Love my animals and show them patience and care. And for my three daughters, never leave them. Never turn my back on them. Be the mother to them I never had. So happy birthday to me! May I never stop learning and growing and loving. Here’s to the next 50 years!”
Sofer also had a spectacular birthday party with her friends and family, including some from B&B — check out all the fun in the special gallery below!
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"Family is everything!" Sofer enthused. "Feeling so overwhelmed with gratitude for all the people I love who came out to celebrate. 50 is my favorite so far!"
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Sofer's 13 year old daughter, Avalon, took up her guitar to entertain her mother and everyone else at the party.
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“My favorite and best present today was Sanford Bookstaver showing up to my birthday party to surprise me,” the birthday girl revealed. “Why would that be an event? Because he is currently in NYC shooting POWER and he flew here to L.A. for five hours to be a part of my special day! I can’t even… San! I love you! You are an amazing human, father, and friend!”
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"Still reeling from all the birthday love,” Sofer gushed later. “Thank you all for the comments and messages. I appreciate you all so much and cannot wait to see what this year (and decade!) has his store.”"
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“Yesterday was such an amazing day! It gave me so much ‘hope!’” joked Sofer, here with B&B’s current Hope, Annika Noelle, and her predecessor, Kim Matula!"
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“So six months ago, I asked Katherine Kelly Lang (Brooke) to have her sweetie, Dominique Zoida, make me one of his famous chocolate cakes for my 50th birthday. After a long work week and her cancer benefit this weekend, she and Dom drove home, and made my party by the last 30 minutes to bring me the cake! Even though I had amazing desserts made by Chef Vallerie all day, I still went home and devoured half the cake last night! Thank you, Dom and KKL! You are two of my favorite people! You have the kindest hearts! I love you!”
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Although Linsey Godfrey (ex-Caroline; Sarah, DAYS OF OUR LIVES) and Matula are no longer Sofer’s B&B castmates, they were still there to help her celebrate her big day! “I love these two amazing women!” she gushed of her dear friends.