It’s a rare occurrence that Trevor St. John (Tucker; THE YOUNG & THE RESTLESS) agrees to sit down for an interview, so it was a special treat when the press-shy actor agreed to appear on Maurice Benard’s YouTube series, State of Mind. While the conversation between the men covered the usual range of topics that Benard’s mental-health vlog is known for — like St. John’s passion for acting, love of music, and how his sister’s death changed him — St. John shared one of his biggest vulnerabilities right at the start.
“To be honest with you, I’m a little frightened,” St. John confessed when the GENERAL HOSPITAL star asked him how he was doing. “I wanted to be honest with you because what you’re doing here is to kind of propagate the idea that it’s okay to be vulnerable. And I really have a fear of public speaking. So, I’m a little frightened.”
St. John, also known to daytime audiences from his seven-year run as Todd/Victor on ONE LIFE TO LIVE, added that he felt it was important to be honest with Benard about his discomfort in giving interviews. Especially given the nature of what STATE OF MIND is all about. “That’s why I wanted to say it outright,” St. John added. “It’s what we’re here for and what you’re doing. Which is why I was really honored that you asked me. Because normally, I avoid these kinds of things. Even print.”
The confession surprised Benard, who was unaware that his latest guest was so reluctant to talk about himself and admitted that his research about St. John didn’t turn up much information. “Yeah, I kind of avoid it because of this fear. I’m sure you can understand that the command you give yourself, ‘I’m being interviewed; be interesting.’ What happens is my mind rejects any direct command I give it. I always feel like I’m monosyllabic and ineloquent and can’t formulate my thoughts.”
Despite his fears, St. John was absolutely eloquent and interesting during the nearly hour-long conversation. He spoke of his friendship with Michael Easton (formerly OLTL’s John; now GH’s Finn), how “fortunate” he felt to have played OLTL’s Todd and Victor, what it was like joining Y&R as a recast of Tucker McCall, and his very personal connection to his 2022 film, A Good Enough Day.